Fear is a natural thing. It is a reminder–a warning from past mistakes that caution you to take care. As much as we all like to put on a brave face, fear is something that EVERYONE feels.
It’s something that has ruled my decisions and outlook on life for years. The past twelve months in particular were full of moments when I was more afraid than I’d ever been in my 28 years. Although I knew all those moments were learning opportunities, they still plagued my heart and damaged my spirit.
I’ve been going back and forth on a fairly important decision for months now. My naturally-occurring optimism wants me to decide one way, while my fear of failure and being unworthy is leaning towards the other.
Steven Furtick tweeted something today that really hit home for me: “Faith doesn’t eliminate fear. It enables you to handle it. (See Exodus 4:1-4)” The verse is when God is dispelling all of Moses reasons why he shouldn’t be sent to Pharaoh. Moses says that no one will believe him. So what does God do? He gives Moses the ability to turn his staff into a snake! I’m pretty sure that Moses had no idea that God would do that for him. He still had some doubts, but Moses had faith in the Lord and was able to overcome his fears of not being good enough.
I’m obviously not Moses. God hasn’t appeared to me and told me that I’m going to save His people, but I do believe that God has a special plan for me. It’s okay to be afraid and worried; I’m human and I have my frailties. However, I don’t have to give in to them. I can be confident that God will equip me with what I need to do what He has called me to do.